I saw when my lil bro, Noah tweeted this, but just now had the opportunity to hit the website, R.A.O.K. to read it in its entirety… *tears* It’s truly challenging to watch the younger ones we love so much go through the obstaclesof life with no helmet to protect their head & no armour to protect their heart. And as life comes full circle, over and over again, you catch quick glimpses of their growth and those moments of calm make the memories of past pains fade to black… You always knew they were just going thru the growing pains of life as they developed into the individual God pre-destined them to be, but now witnessing the end result gives you the peace you always strived for.
Having my brother Noah, come live with me 2 years ago, wasn’t the piece of cake I imagined it would be, but one thing is for certain — I miss him like crazy now that he’s no longer with me in Atlanta. As hard as I was on him during that time, I can say, I learned from the experience as well. Having the front row seat during his performance of life, made me reflect back to my “under 21″ years of life that I would NEVER want to re-live. While I’d like to think I made all the right decisions, that’s so far from the truth…
At 19, I was pregnant & trying to figure out who I was & who I wanted to be… So, as quickly as I’d like to scorn my young siblings for the decisions they make with & without consultation from those who have done it before them, I remind myself… sometimes the best lessons learned in life are the ones we learned on our own… The hardest falls sometime turn into the most defining moments and those moments are the instances we step one step closer to God in character – we are then, forever changed.
To Noah, who will forever be my “lil brother”:
I look at you & see a reflection of myself. I could never stay mad at you, I love you way too much to ever allow the frustration over power what’s most important in life – family.
As you continue your journey of life, never ever question my love… I will always be just a text, tweet, Facebook Message or phone call away… Always. No need to shoot for the stars, you’re already one because your light shines that bright… Instead, shoot for the HEAVENS instead & let God know, you won’t let Him down… I love you forever…. Your Bossy, Over-protective, Highly Territorial, yet Extremely Proud Sister
####
break me lil ol’ heart, my sister will break your lil ol’ face! bahaha
She has ALWAYS had my back and she has ALWAYS believed in me even though my actions at times would make one jump off the noah-wagon
whether it was from
1.Sleeping at a females house while my nephew was home alone (misunderstanding) i drove 115mph the whole way once i found out :/
2.Forgot to pick her up from the airport (3hours late) so she took Marta (train) home just to find out she was locked-out (idk if you know my sister, but she dont ride no damn train..lol)
3.Droppin out of Music school to work at the studio Full-Time w/out consulting her
4.Drunk drivin into the wall (she helped me get it fix)
5.Pulled strings to sold out Hawks tickets when the Lakers were in town and i didnt even pick up my phone <—- still salty
6.Being In and Out of the Municipal Court to where the judge in courtroom 4D knew me by name PLUS i had 15+ outstanding parking tickets on the side chillin
7.Car got towed it was $1300+ to get it out when she had warned me several times to obey law
8. moved to Texas and didnt tell her til i was already there (Actually mother dearest told her..couldnt quite do it myself)
9. i could go on..but imma stop there for the sake of me.. =]
On the real..shes one of the best things to ever happen to me, sometimes i feel like i took advantage of the love she had for me cuz i knew it’d always be there no matter what.
she can be a pro at concealing it at times when i piss her off but periodical calls from mom would remind me that i still had her in my palm..
Mike Shep (Vp of Collipark) once said to me, “to people who love you unconditionally , its hard for them to understand what you’re doin and why you’re doin it on your journey cuz all they see is the struggle. They want so bad to try & help “Why are you” “well why dont you” but i knew at the end of the day i gotta do me regardless.. I think she understood that tho there were times i bet she just wanted to shake the shit outta me out of frustration..but still she stuck by a nigga
TOLD YOU SHE WAS MY RIDE OR DIE!